I HAVE been kidding myself!

Despite my PLAN to track everything and stay within points, I didn't last long. With the visitors and holiday fun, I decided to eat and track later. This resulted in disaster. I have just added up my points from yesterday - a total of 47 POINTS! I have just added up my points from this morning - a total of 27 POINTS ALREADY and it is only just after 9 am!

This is a good shock really.

I have been kidding myself.

I haven't wanted this as badly as I have been kidding myself because if I did, I would not be eating and disregarding points. I KNOW that points works - when I have tracked and balanced my points, drank water and exercised, I have lost 1 to 1.2 kilograms a week. I have seen other people in their blogs and on the weight watchers boards lose over 0.5kg each week because they track, exercise and drink their water. I want to be a healthy weight so badly. I need to be a healthy weight if I want to keep living. Balancing points is no great hardship - you still get to eat lovely food - you just have to be aware of what you are eating. I have to plan my food and balance my points for four weeks (really forever but 4 weeks is my starting goal) so that I can break the habit of gorging on point-laden foods. I feel like such a weight watchers poser. But that is no more!! I feel like I want to type "I hope I can track and balance my points" but I feel that I must actually commit to that - this is my deicison time NOW.

I realize that I have been kidding myself when I received a comment from Suz (Thanks Suz!). She said to aim for 400grams loss a week. And, that is so true! I have been aiming for a cruisy 300g a week because I haven't wanted to put in the hard work. I am lazy with this business. I need to shake myself up. When I have done everything right in a week, I have lost 1.2kg - it isn't rocket science - balancing points, water and exercise works. Fooling myself and only doing the exercise and not doing the points balancing is hit and miss.

At least I have learnt from this weekend that sausages and cake are so point laden and so not work it. I also realised that I thought freddo frogs were one point - they are actually two and not worth it unless I really need a chocolate fix.

Well, I am going to plan my food for tomorrow now so that I know what I should be eating.

0 water
1.5 Nutri-grain
1.5 skim milk
1.5 pce toast + vegemite
0.5 coffee + milk

1 banana
2 yoghurt
0 water

0 water
5 silverside salad
0 water

0 water
1 apple
1.5 cashews (7)
0 water
0.5 cofee + milk

0 water
3 steak
0 veges - greens
0 water

GYM - cardio session