Balanced Baby Steps Needed

I have been feeling really depressed lately and can't really put my finger on it.

In terms of this weight loss thing, I seem to be just standing still. I plan out what I want to do and where I want to get to and then I act on my plans for about a day and then throw everything out the window. I think setting goals about what I want to loose by when stresses me out and doesn't help me get to where I want to be.

Instead, I need to focus on my baby steps again...in all areas of my life. I get overwhelmed too easily and then become very oversensitive. I have been blessed with so many opportunities - I need to grab hold of those.

I think I have written about this before but I keep needing to remind myself - baby steps is what works. I also seem to achieve more success if I focus on goals without dates. So here are a new set of goals...I am just going to keep taking baby steps towards them and then celebrate them in a big way when I get there.

I am currently sitting on about 94.5Kg. Weigh-in days are Wednesdays.

Goal 1 = 93Kg. Reward = feeling comfortable in my new clothes.
I have a few new tops (grey one, white ones etc) that I was fitting well at about 93 Kg. Now that the weight has crept on a little again, they still fit but I feel somewhat uncomfortable in them.

Goal 2 = 88Kg. Reward = wearing my new plum top.
I also have new plum coloured top that I haven't worn out yet. I really love it and mum and T have told me it looks good on me but I feel really self conscious in it at the moment. My reward for dropping 7kg more will be to wear this to work for the first time. :)...little bit nervous about this one :)

******** Getting to 88Kg will be a great achievement for me ********* I need to remember this.

I also need to remember that no matter what weight you are, you can still be beautiful on the outside. I need to make sure I am getting enjoyment from my clothes, doing my hair and make-up nice and smiling more. I also need to remember to drink lots of water to make my skin healthy.

Goal 3: 85Kg. Reward = buying 2 more outfits for work.

Goal 4: 82Kg. Reward = weekend away/night on the town.
I weighed this weight when I got married...while I was overweight at this time and felt it, I still remember feeling a lot better than I do now. Reaching this weight will be well marked by a night of dancing.

Goal 5: 78Kg. Reward = going through that box of clothes I have had packed away for years because they haven't fitted for years and finding at least one outfit to wear!

Goal 6: 75Kg. Reward = feeling free to fall pregnant at any time.
Even though 75Kg isn't my goal weight - I personally feel if I got pregnant at this weight my body could deal with it.

Goal 7: 72Kg. Reward = holiday somewhere.

Goal 8: 68Kg. Reward = being at goal - feeling the amazing sense of achievement.

Now, goals 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8 don't really matter right now. The only thing that matters at the moment is: Goal 1 = 93Kg. Reward = feeling comfortable in my new clothes.

Baby steps towards Goal 1:
1. Eating more regular and healthy meals and being conscious of portions.
2. Drinking at least 6 glasses of water each day and only one glass of any other drink.
3. Exercising for at least 20 minutes each day.

Distance from Goal 1 today = 1.5Kg.
Plan for today's baby steps = 1. From now, I am going to eat every 2 - 3 hours and make the portions 10% smaller. 2. I've already had a coffee for today so, for the rest of the day, it's nice cold water. 3. I need to walk the DVD to the video shop and I would also like to do my 10 min intense tummy toning workout. I also am getting of the Internet now to do a super clean of the house.