I can do this

Negative thoughts have been creeping back but I can't let those thoughts defeat me. I can get a healthy body back. I want that so much and it is so important that I do everything I can to get it.

Reflections from the last week:

• started out with letting old habits of alcohol and fried food dominate
• got back into long walks on the beach
• planned meals but didn't stick to the plans
• got frustrated (extremely frustrated actually) that everything in my life is not perfect; when I actually take a fresh look at things, it isn't all that bad and I am actually just a big sook AND I waste a lot of potentially productive time being a sook
• had two great days with tracking, water intake, moderation and exercise

What have I learned this week?

• to deal with the afternoon binges, I should try to save 6 or 7 points for that and then if I don't binge I can save 4 points
• I should wait half an hour between snacks to space them out more and really sea if I need them or not
• I need to remember that when I am binging, it is usually about 4 or 5 in the afternoon - the same time as when it is still sunny but starting to cool down - the perfect time for a walk!
• I need to try planning a free day into my week to be flexible for my lifestyle and personality and I need to monitor this against my statistics - if it doesn't work, I can always drop the free days
• exercising is just not about the scales - it makes you feel great instantly!
• once you start drinking water, it becomes easier to drink more and you don't get as tired (not sure if the improved energy is due to just the water intake or whether it is also due to exercise, holidays and vegetables)
  

Goals for Monday 12/4 - Sunday 18/4

Weight loss goals:

Water:

• Drink at least 1.5 litres of water each day.

Food:

• Track and balance points at least 3 days this week (*baby steps --> am working my way up to every day in the week).
• Have vitamin tablet each day this week.
  

Exercise: Get a variety of exercise - be active each day.

• Monday: walking all day at the theme park + sit ups and stretches
  
• Tuesday: beach in the morning, walking all day at the shops
• Wednesday: gym - upper body
• Thursday: 20 mins intense cardio + sit ups and stretches
• Friday: walk + gym - lower body
• Saturday: walk + sit ups and stretches
• Sunday: 20 mins intense cardio

Organisation goals:

• have a shiny and clutter-free sink before going to bed each night
• complete marking
• get booklets prepared and into photocopying
• do ironing off spare bed
• iron all work outfits for week 1

I feel deflated sometimes when I look at other people's amazing statistics on their weight loss blogs. I am just jealous of their hard work and amazing progress. I get jealous of their determination to keep going even when they have a gain or multiple gains. You can see in their stats that despite their set backs, the gradual losses over time do add up to a lot of weight gone from their bodies. I am going to start with a fresh lot of statistics and work on getting my numbers down.