Frustration led me to FlyLady

I was so frustrated today with not getting everything done that I wanted to get done and feeling that all of the chores fall onto me and I typed into Google: +frustrated +husband +clutter +disorganised

Within a few clicks I have found flylady.com - it is the greatest. It is just like weightwatchers in a way but about organising your life and cleaning your house, keeping it clean, through baby steps! I am so excited about this!

Taking on what I have been learning, I am going to make baby steps and tonight before going to bed I am going to:
1. shine my sink
2. work on my spare room hot spot - 2 minutes
3. pick out my clothes for tomorrow and organise them before bed

Tomorrow morning before taking DH to work, I am going to:
1. get dressed and lace up my shoes
2. put out my hotspots - brown cupboard, dining table, brown chest - 2 minutes each
3. put a load of washing on and put in the drier

When I return tomorrow, I am going to:
1. shine my sink
2. get ready for mum and dad's visit
3. 5 minute spare room room rescue (day 1 of 27).

Before bed tomorrow night, I am going to:
1. keep my sink shining
2. lay out my clothes for the next day
3. put out my hotspots - brown cupboard, dining table, brown chest - 2 minutes each

Monday morning I will:
1. get dressed and lace up my shoes
2. put out my hotspots - brown cupboard, dining table, brown chest - 2 minutes each
3. put a load of washing on and put in the drier
4. shine my sink
Later on Monday I will:
4. 5 minute spare room room rescue (day 2 of 27).
5. come back to the website and review my before bed routine.

On Tuesday, I will be up to Day 10

An action-packed night!

Why is it that when you are on holidays you never seem to get on top of the cleaning, washing and ironing? Maybe it is just me :). I seem to procrastinate so much on the holidays.

Well, tonight while T is at work, I am going to see how much I get done. I might check back here every few hours to keep myself honest with how many chores I get done.

Today was our 6 year anniversary - I have been obese for 5 years now...time to change that. What a way to spend my anniversary - cleaning!! :) I secretly LOVE it when my house is super clean though and it can be my anniversary present to my awesome husband.

I'm going to get there because I'm going to try again.

I did well before Christmas...I exercised, tracked and drank water. All of that showed on the scales on the Wednesday before Christmas too...93.3Kg (a total loss of 8.3Kg). I also felt fitter and thinner and I got to wear an outfit on Christmas day that I hadn't been able to wear for years.

But then, I let it all go over Christmas and the last few days - today I weighed myself (in clothes and after a meal) and I had put on something like 2.7Kg in four days!!

I know that tracking, drinking water, getting regular exercise and pushing the limits of exercise works. So, that is what I am going to do. I won't do it perfectly every day but I need to keep trying until I get there.

I don't know why I do this to myself but...If I lose 300 grams each week, I can lose 15.6Kg between now and this time next year.

If I lose 500 grams each week, I can get to goal by this time next year.

I want that, I want goal and I know how to do it I have to give it my all to do it and keep persevering.

I can, I can, I can, I will, I will, I will do this.

Am going to start when I wake up with a lovely glass of water, tracking, 2 hours of house cleaning and a walk before lunch.

Actually, I am going to go and set up my tracking diary now :).

MMMMMMMotivated!

Motivation is running hot!

About time I got back to this.

So far, I have lost 7.5Kg since an official start about October 2008. I am proud of my loss of 7.5Kg but I know I could have done better. I have read so many blogs of people who have managed to lose over their 30kg in the same amount of time. Reading their stories has given me a boost to be so committed. I want to lose my remaining 26Kg of not needed weight by September 2010. I know what I have to do so I am just going to do it. Do it with an attitude of keeping on improving.

I feel like I am going to have a good week this week because when I track and exercise I have big losses and this week (only one day in my weigh-in week so far) I have been tracking and exercising!

I am cleaning today - going crazy with it - being super OCD about it - am loving it and, to reward myself at the end of the day, I am going to put my Christmas tree up and wrap presents. Bit late with the tree but I haven't wanted to put it up until everything is super clean - gotta stop with that perfectionist mindset if I'm going to be successful at this weight loss hey!

Balance

It has been over a month since I have bothered to write anything but while I haven't been here, good things have been happening on the scales. Not great things...but good things...I have lost about 2kg since then.

I think I have finally managed to understand about BALANCE...working out the balance of what I put into my mouth. I should be exercising more though...this can be my new focus.

I've also been good (most of the time) at thinking...that sugary/fatty thing is just not worth it!

BODY STOCKTAKE

Despite my post earlier today about how pumped I am about being healthy and sticking to the plan, I feel like I failed this afternoon.

I was sticking to points and water so well and then T got fish and chips. No one forced me to eat it but I did and I felt (and still feel) so bad for it! Well, I should have just said that is a blip on my record, now get on with the healthiness. But, because I felt like a total stuff up and I am feeling so much the pressure of the wedding in November, I decided to eat heaps of chocolate biscuits. I am not sure of the points for the fish and chips - I am estimating 22 points for that and the chocolate biscuits came to 10 points - that makes me 32 points over my limit for today and today is the first day of my week!!

I am letting myself be defeated because I am concentrating too much on not being able to get to my goal. I am so stressed out about how I am going to look as a bridesmaid in November. I just keep thinking about how I am going to ruin the photographs because I am so big and haven't lost much weight. I need to take a reality check of this situation because feeling stressed and bad about myself for this wedding is only going to make the photographs look worse.

So my body stock-take is:

• I have been approximately 100Kg for the last 3 years I think. Bride has always been aware of what I look like and when she asked me to be her bridesmaid the last time she saw me, I was 100Kg. So, she wouldn't have asked me to be a bridesmaid if she was worried about how I look.

• Now when she asked me to be a bridesmaid, I weighed approximately 100 Kg. If I had been perfect and lost 0.5 Kg every week since then, I could have been 86.5Kg by the wedding. If I had been perfect and lucky, I could have lost 1 Kg every week since then and could have been 73 Kg by the wedding. I guess, I could have also put on weight since then and been a lot heavier than I am now and I haven't - I have lost a total of 6.3Kg this year so that is a bonus!! Now, there are seven weeks until the wedding. I am capable of losing between 3.5Kg and 7 Kg in this time. If I lose 3.5Kg, I can be 91.8Kg by the wedding. If I lose 7Kg, I can be 88.3Kg. My goal is therefore to be somewhere close to 90Kg by the wedding and that will be a big achievement.

• It was suggested to me that to lose the weight for the wedding, that I should do a liquid diet or a lemon detox. But, I don't want to do that. I don't care enough to compromise my health and my long term healthiness to do one of those crash diets that would just make me miserable. I am sure that if I did a liquid diet and deal with my workload at work leading up the wedding, I would probably wind up in hospital for burn out around the wedding time anyway and I don't want that so that is out of the question.

• I have lost 6.3 Kg this year which is a big change for me. I have had a lot of people comment about how good I am looking and my clothes are fitting better. Jeans that I couldn't do up earlier in the year are baggy on me now!! So, if people are noticing me looking better from losing 6Kg, losing another 6-ish Kg is going to make me look even better - a nice bonus for the wedding hey!!

• Even though I am proud of my 6.3Kg weight loss this year, I haven't been following the program well. I haven't been exercising enough. I haven't been tracking well and I haven't been drinking enough water. It's time to get tough. I need to commit to a tough 7 week commitment plan. I will have blips in this time but I need to get back to the tough plan. The tough plan is at the bottom of this post.

• Another thing that I think is also defeating me is that when I am not at work, I spend a lot of time on this blog writing lists and dreaming etc which isn't actually helping me shift the weight at the end of the day. So I am going to limit myself to only going onto this blog every three days. The next time I come here will be Sunday. Instead of spending a heap of time on here and other useless websites, I should be planning meals, drinking water and moving more!

• This is another bad habit of mine but I want to do the whole amazing what-if thing - you see, I want to see what amazing goal might be able to be achieved if I stick to the tough plan to a tea for 7 weeks and if everything falls into place right for my body. I think it would be amazing to be able to lose 1.5Kg every week for 7 weeks. If that could happen, I could be 84.8Kg. I will be happy though to be as close as I can be to 90Kg.

So, what does the tough plan involve? Well, the tough plan is in reality not all that tough but it will be tough for me considering how I have been behaving lately.

THE TOUGH PLAN:

• In the next 7 weeks, I need to do 28 x 30 minute intense cardio sessions (like I used to do with the personal trainer). Below, I have 28 markers...these will change colour for every intense cardio session that I do...

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Everyday I MUST:

• Drink 2L of water everyday. The only other beverages that I will have are a maximum of 1 coffee and 1 cup of tea a day. No alcohol, juices, cordials etc will be drunk except for limited amounts at the 30th birthday party and the hens day.

• Do weights/stretches every night - a minimum of: 20 sit-ups, 20 side sit-ups, 20 leg raises, 20 squats and 20 arm exercises.

• I will track and balance my points each week. When I have a blip in the tracking, I will not make the blip a monsterous BLIP - i will get back on track straight away.

• I will get 6 hours of sleep each night.

Aim: to budge between 3.5Kg and 7Kg of fat in the next 7 weeks.

Weight up but motivation is running hot :)

Weigh-in this morning showed that I have gone up 0.8Kg.

But...

I am extremely motivated at the moment to do everything right this week and half a day into the week, I HAVE been doing everything right which is great for me!

So far, I have been tracking everything that I have been eating and, I have been keeping up my water intake. These two things are good achievements for me! The third thing that I need to do is to make sure I am getting my heart rate up each day this week. At the very least today I am going to do an exercise video. Building on the previous day's efforts is what my focus will be. So my goals for today are:

1. Stick to my 23 points
2. Drink all of my water
3. 20 min exercise DVD
4. 50 sit ups, 50 squats and arm weights
5. Day 3 goals of Change your ways in 30 days: write to-do-list; walk for 21 minutes; drink 2L water.